I'm Tired

I am so tired. I have not had a good night's sleep for almost 8 weeks.

I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of thinking of her, of him, of them together. And I can't stop thinking of them. I... just... can't... STOP.

Last night I tried to go to sleep with out drugs (over the counter sleep aids - don't worry I don't do the illegal stuff) or alcohol - I failed miserably.

I want to be done with this. I want to be over the pain. I want a switch that will turn it off.

I am so fucking tired of this. When is this going to be over?

I'm tired.

I just want it to end.